im beginning to doubt myself again. life is going by so slowly. emotions are running dry and feelings are disappearing.
career planning is a BITCH. emily do this, emily dont do that, emily get your shit together. i always wanted to pursue a future in art. i loved drawing, painting, photography etc. but now i have to look forward to things like medicine, things that give me no time to be myself. the strain i have put on me is unbearable and i cant seem to just get over it. is this normal?! is this what being an adult is all about? cause if it is, i dont fucking want it anymore. i dont want any of this BULLSHIT. i want to go back to highschool where everything was carefree. i want to go back to junior high where writing notes to the boy you liked was EPIC. i want to go back to elementary where p.e consisted of walking around the field 3 times. i want to go back to preschool where nap-time was an hourly class. i want my childhood back so that i can live through it with appreciation.
anyone have a time machine??? hit me up, lets be buds.
Do what you want to do,
ReplyDeleteor else you'll hate it for the rest of your life! (: